Beginnings . . .



You always have to start somewhere . . .

So. My husband. 

My sweet, darling husband decided about a month to a month and a half ago that we were going to do this work out dvd series called, “Insanity.” I was super pumped! I had lost 15 pounds before my wedding day, and when people ask how is married life treating you, my reply is always, “Great! Marriage loves me. I’m fat!” That 15 pounds has slowly crept back into my life since saying “I do!” Much to my dismay, I haven’t had much motivation to work at losing it again, yet I find myself continuously moping around and complaining about my weight, growing jealous of those girls who have high metabolisms or who just know how to lose the weight fast. Obviously, this was getting me no where, and my husband noticed the way I was feeling. He, too, struggled with the same unhappiness. So, this was his solution. Luckily, we were able to borrow the dvd’s from a co-worker of his instead of paying money for the series. You would think this might motivate us more?

No! At least not me . . .

I have always been able to stay disciplined with a work out for a good solid two weeks. After that I seem to find myself off the band wagon left in the dust. I’m on week 4 now, and it has probably taken me at least 6 weeks to get here. So, why can’t I seem to motivate myself and put a firecracker under my butt? Especially when I’d rather get this thing done and over with but instead drag it out making it a lot harder on myself. I know the end results are what I’m looking for but getting there is like a hamster running after something on his wheel, he never gets there. Solution?

I’ve come to the conclusion that there really isn’t one unless I put forth the effort and continue trying different routes until I find one that works for me. The hamster won’t get to his food unless he chooses to get off the darn wheel and make an effort to get his results. As I have gotten older and grown to understand my strengths and my weaknesses, this is most certainly one of my biggest weaknesses. I’m a great self motivator, but this is one area where I have a hard time self motivating. Point blank – it sucks! But I’ve decided to focus on my anticipated results and use them as a motivator, or more as a deadline.

My husband and I are rounding our one year wedding anniversary (crazy?! I know!). To celebrate, we have booked ourself a 7 night cruise to Bermuda at the end of May. We both want to be beach bod, cruise fit! In order for that to happen, I have to get my butt in gear or else those results will never come, leaving me with even more disappointment. Beginnings are always the easiest, jump starting yourself with fresh ideas to do something in order to get where you want to be, but disciplining yourself for the long run to get there can be a real challenge. I remind myself that the strength inside of me to become healthier is greater than I can imagine if I just focus on the goal, on the prize. God wants me to be healthy, not only in mind and spirit, but also physically. If I am not physically healthy, taking care of the temporary physical temple he gave me, how will I be able to go where He wills me?

It reminds me of the cake in the picture above. That was my first cake I ever semi-professionally did. It was for a former co-worker’s baby shower. I was fresh out of my Wilton cake decorating class, excited, and ready to start my dream. I’ve always dreamed of becoming the owner of my own private bakery and have grown in the love the idea of having a small business out of my home where I can do what I love and be there to raise my family at the same time. Beginning my dream was the easy part, getting excited about the simple opportunities to bake and decorate a cake was a lot of fun too, but now, I’m at the point where things have plateaued and it’s time to get this engine running hot again. I have gotten to the place in my dreams of a future business where it is time to focus on decisions of networking, media, and building clientele.

Like any dream or path one desires to take on, you have to be ready to hit the rough patches but keep pushing through. Nothing comes easy, and not much is free. We have to find the strength in ourselves and in our faith that our dreams will one day come true, maybe not in our timing but in God’s for certain. “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” –Philippians 4:13.

As I continue to search and rejuvenate this motivation to get healthier and to grow my business, I encourage you to find your self motivator. What gets the fire inside of you burning? What gives you the itch and the desire to keep on?



Happiness vs. Joy

So. Here I am . . . first blog. EVER!

What to write is the question that lingers in my mind? I’ve never been the best writer or the most organized thinker. If I could put my mind on a page, you wouldn’t be able to understand the language of my thoughts. They are never clear, much like a cobweb. One would think that I’d be good at something like this. Blogging. I mean, I was an English major, but to put my thoughts on page has never been something I’ve devoted myself to. So, we will see how this plays out and where my words and thoughts go from here.



What is happiness? Where does one go to find it? According to webster, happiness is defined as “a state of well-being and contentment” and “a pleasurable or satisfying experience.” So, how does one obtain this contentment, this pleasurable or satisfying experience? Happiness, by definition, seems so temporary. Contentment, in my mind, demonstrates a temporary satisfaction. It’s a feeling that occurs when you have found pleasure in a moment, a conversation, a purchase, etc. However, happiness also as the vulnerability of another feeling or emotion taking over in an instant. Happiness reminds me of the farmer in the Parable of the Sower (Matthew 13:1-23) when the farmer planted his seed on rocky grounds. The plants grew quickly because of shallow soil, but when the sun rose, the plants shrivelled and died because there were no roots. Happiness, alone, does not have roots. It does not grow and it is not everlasting by itself. Therefore, you can search and search for happiness, but you will never find a happiness that lasts longer than the moment it is found.



What is joy? Where does one go to find it? According to webster, joy is defined as “a source or cause of great happiness.” Joy, by definition, is a source, a foundation for happiness and satisfaction. It is not defined as the emotion of happiness but the root of happiness. It seems that in order to have a happiness that lasts, you must find the source of that happiness. Joy feeds happiness. Without joy, you cannot be happy. In the NIV Bible, the word “joy” is written roughly 218 times, and as joy is the source of true happiness, the Bible is a source to grow in our relationship with God. The Bible is a reference that leads to knowledge of an everlasting happiness, but without that reference, how would we understand having a relationship with God? Pastors use the Bible as a source. Theologians use the Bible as a source. Christians use the Bible as a source to stand for Jesus, while those who do not believe, use the Bible as a source to stand against Jesus. A foundation is needed for everything one does, says, and believes. Like the Parable of the Sower (Matthew 13:1-23) when the farmer planted his seeds in good, rich soil, the plants grew and crops were harvested by the hundreds. In order for those seeds to flourish, they must have a source of nutrition in which they can grow roots that will be the foundation of healthy crops.

So. Is there a difference between happiness and joy? How does this difference apply to my life as a person and a follower of God?

Yes. There is a great difference between happiness and joy. Happiness is temporary. Joy is steadfast and stable. In my own personal and spiritual life, in order for me to be fulfilled and happy, I have to obtain that joy that I feel can only be found through the love and acceptance of my Savior. With the foundation of my Christian faith as well as my belief in and relationship with God, I am able to obtain happiness here in this life. If I did not have that joy, that source of fulfillment, I would not be able to experience the happiness this life has to offer.

I find my happiness in dancing, cooking, spending time with family, and much more, but a major happiness in my life is baking, specifically cakes and pies. When I bake, I find peace, happiness, relaxation, meditation, time for myself, and most importantly time with the one who blessed me with this gift, Jesus Christ.

I encourage you to find your joy so that you will be able to experience all the happiness that life has to offer you! There is no satisfaction in a temporary happiness, but happiness with joy as its roots will never be lacking:

“There’s a little flame inside us all

Some shine bright, some shine small

The rains will come and the waters rise

But don’t you ever lose your light

In this life you will know

Love and pain, joy and sorrow

So when it hurts, when times get hard

Don’t forget whose child you are

This little light of mine

I’m gonna let it shine

This little light of mine

I’m gonna let it shine, gonna let it shine”

–This Little Light of Mine (Addison Road)

In closing, I would like to introduce you to my website so that you may get to know what brings me happiness as well as get to know more about me.